Living in your own Truth.

Living in your own truth is something that I’ve heard for a while now. And I am starting to really know what that means, and how to go about doing it. Living in your truth is just living a life without hiding, denying or false fronting for anyone. Not even your own self. Be truthful to you and the people around you. Know who you are and stand in and up for what you believe in.

I haven’t been living in my truth. I have been letting things and people hold me back from me and what I stand for. I can’t continue to let that that happen. My truth is that I am who I am and nothing will ever change that. I love God for just the simple things in my life, like Him waking me up in morning and Him waking my mother up in the morning. God giving us the strength to keep going when circumstance gets in our way. Just being there when the devil is trying his hardest to keep us down and for giving God the glory.

My truth is that I am not the best person in world and I have my faults. I am a bitch sometimes. But I love hard and deep. My mother is my joy and  she makes me who I am everyday. I cry when I think about her because I am not always good to her and I hate myself for that. But no matter what, I would do anything for her. She is the greatest mother in the world. Better than her own, and her sister. In my rawest moments in my life my mother never judged me and never turned her back on me. She sacrificed everything for me just to see me happy. And I will do the same for her.

My truth is I am learning how to own who I am and be happy in my own skin, and take care of the people who really matter to me. And say what I mean and mean what I say. To tell the truth even when it hurts. To be a better person tomorrow then I was yesterday. To give God the glory whenever and where ever I am. I don’t care who hears me shout GOD IS GOOD.  That’s my truth and I’m living in it.

 

Some Good Sex.

I love good sex, not when it lasts for 5 or 15 minutes, but when a man can take his time and let you know how much he loves and appreciates you. When he can tongue kiss your pussy like he tongue kisses you when you just finish arguing and he wants to shut you up. (mm sigh)… Women there are things we can hate and complain about with the men we love; ‘oh, he don’t take out the trash, he don’t spend time with me, blah blah blah’. And yes, sometimes we complain about the sex. Men got it already in their minds how they’re going to shut us up and put it down.

He’ll come home and act like everything is cool, all the while you’re still running your mouth. He has tuned you out. He grabs your arm and pulls you into the bedroom, tosses you on the bed, snatches all your clothes off and begins to put the breaks on your cootchie. Then he takes a break after an hour or two, you’re thinking its over. He comes back and finish putting it on you. Then he says “run your mouth now”… What else can you say after that,but that was some good sex?!

Wtf???

   I was thing about thinking about the the things we put with as women in a relationship for the men we love. Since when is it cool to put aside your own happiness for someone who claims to loveyou, but doesn't give a shit if you're happy or not?! Like I said "only you can make yourself happy, everyone else is secondary". That person will forever be apart of your life, because you both have a child together. It's time to make yourself happy and then your child will grow up knowing that his mother knows how to be a strong woman. And that's he will look for in a woman of his own. Please Ladies, don't put someone else's needs before your own and don't settle for anything less than you deserve. A man will only get away with what  you allow him to. Do not let anyone take a piece you that you can't get back. Get your minds right ladies.

  I see now these young girls out here want to only think about sex and who is wearing what?! None of them are thinking about going to school and bettering themselves. Nasty little heffers just want to be grown before their time. Why? Well because of what they're seeing on tv and listening to in their music. They smoking, drinking, and sexting even before they hit puberty. Mother's are becoming their child's friend, instead of being a damn Parent. My Mother was never my friend. And that's way it should be. Yes, we have a good relationship now. Growning I knew who the parent was and what lines to cross. I also knew how be a child and stay in a child's place. Not these kids today. They have truly lost their way in the world.
Hmm, just some food for thought.

What's on my mind?!

On to my neighbors, these people that live upstairs above me have kids and I know that kids make noise and shit but damn they need an asswhooping. I mean there is only but so much a person can take. I just want to have a sit down with her and let her know that I will punch the shit out of her and her kids.
Take them outside and let them burn off some energy, set a bedtime, and stick to it.
When I was younger my Mother didn't play with me, when it was time to go to bed that was it, time for bed. She gave me a bath and fed me,and then it was lights out tv off. But these kids aren't like that. They stay up making noise till like 3 in the morning. I can't with these people. As I am writing this they're stomping and jumping around like no one lives under them.  Something needs to be done but I don't know what yet.
Tell me what y'all think if you have the same problem.
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Just being me.

Hello people, welcome to my blog. I just want to say a few  things about myself.
I am a really cool down to earth Gemini. I am just here to jot down what goes on my life and what I think about the world, I love pop culture and I love to watch tv. Some of my blog will be about what I have to say about the things I see.  
I really hope that you enJoy and learn something, I hope that I can make a difference in the way you think and see things. Feel free to comment and tell what you think and whats on your mind.
Oh and my name is LaToya but just call me Toya.